Hair, hair, it's everywhere! If it wasn't for the fact that the little hair I have looks cute when wearing a hat, I think I would have had DH shave it yesterday. My scalp is getting pretty sensitive - especially in the shower and at night. I'm still trying to figure out what is most comfortable for me to wear to bed at night on my head. Because I sleep with a special type of neck pillow, most of the hats are not staying on my head well or are just not comfortable to wear. I finally tried putting on a large head scarf last night and that seemed to work okay. I wonder if I can make myself something that would work better. I think I have some soft knit fabrics down in the storage room.
My bowels are not 100% right now, but at least I am not backed up... I spent a good chunk of the morning yesterday in the bathroom and then slept a good chunk of the afternoon. Our relief society president came over and helped with some cleaning. DH was hoping to work in the yard some, but the weather wasn't cooperating.
This morning I sent the family to church and stayed home with MJ. We went in a little later in time for Sacrament Meeting. I wore a hat there and felt fine with it. I had several compliments on it. I actually feel fine wearing the hats. I don't really feel self-conscious at all about wearing them - except when Kay tried to pull it off of me in Sacrament Meeting because she wanted to see my bald spot! I think that's going to be my biggest problem with the hats and wig - curious kids!
Other than that it was a pretty uneventful Sabbath Day. I've been kind of tired the last couple of days and the nerves in my feet and calves have been acting up a little - tingly and cold at times. My fingertips have the tingling just a little bit but it's not really bothering me at all.
I think I've been a little depressed the last day or two. It happens when I don't feel like I am needed. With everyone trying to come and help us out I feel like my place is being overtaken and that I don't serve a purpose anymore - not the way I like to feel... I like to be able to function normally and do things that I can do. I think it is going to be hard finding a balance point between doing things on my own and accepting the help of others. While I appreciate help from outside, I don't want or need it all the time at this point. Other than being a little tired, I feel like I am able to fully function and I enjoy doing things with my kids and being able to do things around the house. I even don't mind doing laundry and cleaning every now and then!
