I've had some comments made to me lately that I haven't been sure how to respond to. I have run into several people over the last few weeks who have not recognized me at first because of my short hair. They have then gone on to make comments about my hair and asking if I like it that length and asking when I cut it. Sometimes I just keep my answers short so that I don't have to mention my cancer, but I have a hard time not telling the truth when I respond. Truthfully I did not cut my hair, it fell out for the most part. (Although I guess technically we did shave it so that we wouldn't have to find hair all over the house and my pillow.) Yes I am fine with my hair the length that it is at right now, but I don't think that I ever would have chosen this length on my own. Just yesterday I had to show my driver's license to someone and their first comment when they saw it was, "Oh you had such pretty, long hair in your picture!" I just said, "Thanks" and left it at that.
A couple of weeks ago our family attended a picnic put on by our orthodontist. The manager for his office was there and her son and M&M were on a soccer team together a few seasons ago and they are also in our LDS Stake. She hasn't seen me since my diagnosis and she made some comments about my hair and was asking when I cut it. I decided that I didn't mind telling her (since no one in that office has known up to this point) so I mentioned that I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer last October and she was completely blown away. She wasn't sure how to respond and felt embarassed for asking the questions that she had asked (even though at this point there is really no way for people to know by looking at me that I have had cancer). I kept telling her that she was fine and that I would not have shared with her if I didn't want her to know. We then got on a discussion about how I found it and what treatments I am going through. It was a little awkward at first, but I am slowly getting better at talking about the cancer. I still get a little emotional, but after the first little bit I am composed enough to be able to talk about it reasonably well.
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