My infection has cleared up and I take the last of the antibiotics today.  Now I just hope the infection stays away!

I called the dentist's office today to ask if I could get a prescription for an antibiotic.  They called one in to the pharmacy today and I picked it up and started taking it.  Hopefully it will clear up the infection quickly.  I also called the oral surgeon's office and set up a consultation for an extraction and implant.  And of course the way that the specialists work is that the earliest they can get me in is February 27 - which will be at about my 3 week mark from my last infusion.  And they won't even do anything most likely for another couple of weeks after that.

I unfortunately think I am coming down with an infection in my tooth now...  It has been causing me some pain today and general achiness in that area of my mouth...  I think I will need to call the dentist in the morning to see about getting on an antibiotic and discussing which treatment option I think I will go with.  Then I will probably need to call my oral surgeon to try and get in for a consultation.  The fun just never seems to end for me!

I'm wondering if there is a correlation at all between my tooth problem and my rising CA-125 number.

One of the nurses from Huntsman called me today to talk some more about the Avastin with my dental work.  She said that she had talked with my doctor and since the Avastin has a pretty long half-life, she recommends that I try and put off any major dental work for 3-4 weeks if I can since I just had an infusion on Wednesday.  I will be taken off of the study and will keep my CT scan and lab work appointment in six weeks as well as meeting with the doctor.  We will discuss then what our next step will be once we have results from the scan and labs.

I asked about getting my port flushed if I am not keeping my infusion appointment in 3 weeks.  It is a good idea to have it flushed at least every 4-5 weeks and I will not be going back in now for another 6 weeks.  We decided to set an appointment for the clinic near me for 3 weeks from now just to have it flushed.  That should be a nice, quick visit.

Some not so great news today.  I had a dentist appointment this morning just for a rountine cleaning and mentioned that I had been having some tooth/jaw pain off and on in the right lower side of my mouth.  This is the same section of my mouth that I have an implant already and then a year after the implant had to have an apicoectomy/root canal procedure on the tooth right behind the implant.  After the hygienist did the cleaning, they took another x-ray of my lower right jaw and the dentist came in and looked at the x-rays and apparently I have some tooth decay on that tooth once again.  The dentist drew me some pictures of what is going on with the tooth and told me what my possible options would be.  My concern with hearing all of these options is that the Avastin that I am on has some warnings with it if there has to be any major dental work done.  The Avastin interferes with the blood stream and clotting and healing.  I expressed some concern to my dentist and he told me which of the 3 options would be the least invasive.  I don't think that that options is the one that I would prefer to do though.

Then later on in the day I talked with the study coordinator at Huntsman and she said that my CA-125 number has now jumped up to 70.  That is the upper limit for the study so she said that I can stay on the study through my next infusion in 3 weeks but once they get results from my next lab work in 6 weeks, I will probably have to be pulled from the study - assuming that my number stays the same or continues to go up.  She said that the decision was up to me if I want to stay with the study through the next treatment or not.  I then told the coordinator about my dentist appointment this morning and she said that she would look into the specific requirements and recommendations regarding dental work while on the Avastin.  She said that she would discuss it with my doctor and let me know, but at this point I will most likely be pulling myself from the study to get this dental work done.

Met with my Huntsman doctor today.  The nurse that drew my labs was looking at my info and asked how long I have been coming in for treatments.  I said it has been a little of 2 years now.  She was saying that she noticed my age and thought that I was awfully young to be going through all of this.  She then asked how they found the cancer.  It's hard to believe that it's been over two years since my diagnosis and even my surgery now.

So far all my labs look good but it takes a day or so to get the results for the CA-125 number.  They said that that test they run in batches so they run it at a certain time during the day and do all of the CA-125 draws at the same time.  I asked what the course of action would be if my number is above 70.  They said that there are a couple of different options that we can go down.  One would be to put me on an oral maintenance drug called Tamoxifen.  This is one that is used quite often with breast cancer patients and the thinking is the same with ovarian cancer patients.  With BRCA-1 patients it is thought that the female hormones can contribute to the cancer and the Tamoxifen helps to inhibit to production of those hormones.  Another possible option is another study drug which is called a PARP inhibitor.  There is a study that is apparently looking specifically at BRCA-1 patients and if the drug helps inhibit the growth of tumors.  That is also an oral drug that I think they said is taken once or twice a day.

All of this of course is assuming that my next scan still comes up clear and that I feel fine with no other symptoms exhibiting themselves.  If my next CT scan is not clear then we would look into another possible surgery and/or chemotherapy treatment.  The hope though is that even if the cancer comes back, we will hopefully be catching it at such an early stage that it will be more easily treated than the first time around.

My blood pressure was normal when I went for my infusion so that part went relatively easy.

I rescheduled my appointment that I was supposed to have last Wednesday to today instead because my kids are off-track from school and I have them in swimming lessons on Monday, Wednesday and Fridays.  So I rescheduled for a Tuesday so that I wouldn't have to figure out how to get them to their lessons or have them miss.

Today ended up being such a pain for my infusion!!  I wonder if the Tuesday thing threw it all off because they were not able to get ahold of my study coordinator and she had to approve the infusion before they would go ahead with even mixing it in the pharmacy.  My appointment was set for 7:30 in the morning and I ended up having to wait over 2 hours for them to finally start the infusion!  The nurse kept coming over to me and apologizing to me that it was taking so long!  Once they finally got the drug everything went smoothly after that.

I had DH come with me to my appointment today.  It is a little bit of mixed results from my labs and scan yesterday.  The scan looks good other than a small lymph node near my groin area on my left side that is a little bigger than the last scan.  They will keep an eye on that but are not too concerned about it yet.  The bad news is that my CA-125 number has jumped up again - now it is at 51.  They are concerned about that but not sure what it means yet - although DH got them to say that there has been research that shows that the CA-125 number can increase and it may take several months before anything shows up on a scan.  Apparently they reviewed the requirements for the study though and I will not be pulled from it until my number goes above double the normal high of 35.  So bottom line is they believe that my cancer may be slowly trying to come bak but they do not know where or how yet so there is still nothing to do other than wait until something more definitive shows up.  They do feel that the Avastin may be slowing down whatever is happening though so they would like to see me stay on it.  So I came to this appointment expecting to be kicked from the study only to find out that they would like me to still stay on it.

So after meeting with my doctor DH and I headed up to get some lunch before heading to the infusion room.  My blood pressure was in the normal range and we actually got the Avastin relatively quickly.

Had my CT scan and labs drawn today at the South Jordan clinic.  It went relatively smoothly.  It's unfortunate that I consider them routine now...  Tomorrow I have an appointment with my Huntsman doctor and will get the results.  Here's hoping for the best!

My blood pressure was fine again today.  It took almost 2 hours to finally get the Avastin (which was quite annoying), but once it came everything went smoothly.  This may be my last Avastin infusion.

Just got a call from the nurse at Huntsman saying that my breast MRI results came back normal.  Definitely some good news in the midst of everything else.

My dad came to watch MJ while I went in for my breast MRI.  The nurse that accessed my port for me is the same one that I have talked to about my father-in-law in the past so she asked me how he was doing.  I said that he had passed away and she was sorry to hear that.  Although we both agreed that it was probably a blessing for him that he went quickly and didn't have to suffer for an extended length of time...

My MRI went fine and thankfully I didn't have to cough at all!  (I still have a little bit of a cough.)  One slightly annoying thing about each of my scans and MRIs is that I alway seem to have to fill out the same paperwork and answer the same questions everytime.  It is slightly annoying when the answers have not changed from one scan to the next and they should have access to all of my medical records anyways!  So no, I am not pregnant and there is no chance that I will be.  My family history of breast cancer and ovarian cancer has not changed.  I do not have diabetes and I am not on any type of dialysis.  I have never worked as a metal worker or had any type of job working with metal.  The only metal in my body is my power port and a dental implant.  (Although I can never seem to find the right check box to mark for the power port.  I actually had to look up some of the questions on the internet because I didn't even know what they were asking!)  And even though they had called me two weeks before to ask me questions before the MRI that I cancelled, they had to call two weeks later and ask the exact same questions!

We got back in town early this morning from Washington.  We had a really nice funeral for Dad N.  All four of his kids spoke, his daughter sang a beautiful song and all of the grandkids sang, "I Am a Child of God."  My husband helped to write a nice obituary for him:  Dad N's obituary
It all still seems surreal that he is gone.  I imagine we will be feeling that way for quite some time.

Today I had an appointment with my surgeon.  She was wondering if maybe my recent sickness threw off my CA-125 number.  She seemed a little more concerned about the recent jump but also agreed that there is really nothing to do unless we actually have more definitive proof that cancer has returned and that we can see it somewhere.  Other than that things were fine with the appointment.  I will go back again in 4 months.

My husband flew up to Washington this evening to be with his mom and siblings.  There is a lot of planning they need to do and loose ends to tie.

I was supposed to have my annual breast MRI today but called in and rescheduled it for two weeks later.  I have a really bad cold/cough right now and can just picture myself in the tube trying to lay still for my MRI and needing to cough really badly...

Yesterday we heard from my mother-in-law that Dad N is not doing well at all.  Hospice care came in Sunday and said that they gave him about 5 days.  My husband was going to fly up this evening to be there with them but then we got a call just after lunch that he had passed away.  We are still in shock. Dad N was 66 years old.  We saw him just over a week ago and now he is gone.  He lasted less than a week after his doctor predicted 4-6 weeks.

Got word from the nurse on my CA-125 number today.  Unfortunately it has gone up again and I am above normal now.  My number was 41 - with 35 and lower being normal.  The doctors aren't too concerned at this point and are fine waiting until my CT scan in December to see if there are any other indications of the cancer returning.  The nurse said that absent of any other symptoms or cancer indications in my CT scan they still will not do anything.  The nurse also commented that she has never liked having to call people with their CA-125 results because it is not always reliable and at this point they are not going to do anything anyways.  If they have no other signs that the cancer has returned, then they have no way to know how to fight what they can't see.  Unfortunately I have never really had many signs to begin with so we will just have to wait and see with my CT scan.  If my CA-125 is still elevated when I have my labs taken again in 6 weeks then I will be pulled from the study.  So I may just have one more Avastin infusion.  I told my husband that maybe this is God's way of telling me that I need to go off of the study and off of the Avastin!!

My husband and I have had discussions before about my cancer and whether or not I have any impressions about whether it will come back or not.  And while I have not really felt one way or another about how long I might live, I told him quite frankly once that while I have met many cancer survivors who try and give me hope on my future, I have never met anyone with stage 4 cancer who has survived...  That doesn't mean that I won't beat it, but it is a sobering thought.

My appointment and infusion went fine today.  Things have been a little crazy with our family schedule though!  We just got back on Monday night from Washington.  My husband's sister got married!  The wedding was very nice and it was good to see family that we hadn't seen in a while.  And it was good to meet our new brother-in-law finally!  The hard part about the wedding was seeing my father-in-law.  He is not doing well.  He has not wanted his health info shared until now so I haven't mentioned it in my blog other than to say that a close family member was going through some struggles with cancer.  My father-in-law was diagnosed with renal cell carcinoma about a year ago.  Right before Thanksgiving he had one of his kidneys removed, but it had already spread to his spine and lungs.  After that they have been trying different chemo drugs on him to see if they can stop or at least slow the growth of the cancer.  It has definitely been a roller coaster seeing how different drugs have affected him, both physically and mentally.  This weekend he was in quite a bit of pain and was definitely having a hard time getting around.  He has lost a lot of weight and doesn't have much appetite.  He slept most of the time we were there and quite frankly the events with the wedding really wore him out.  He was able to walk his daughter down the aisle though and it was a sweet experience for all who participated.  After we left town though they went in for some lab work and doctors appointments and found out that the doctor believes that his liver and remaining kidney are both failing.  There are some things they can try to maybe prolong his life, but at this point they are giving him 4-6 weeks to live.

Sorry, I've been falling a little behind lately in updating this blog!  There has been a lot going on so I will try and update as best as I can.

My blood pressure was normal for my avastin infusion today, but there was some confusion about the amount of the medication that they were supposed to give me or something like that.  I had to wait super long because apparently there was something different this time when the pharmacy went to fill the Avastin prescription and they had to do some double checking with the study coordinators to make sure they gave me the correct dosage.  Pretty annoying since it has been the same for almost 2 years now and my weight has stayed pretty constant through all of that time.  After they finally got it sorted out things went smoothly.

My blood pressure was a little elevated again today at my doctor's appt, but I attribute that to the fact that I was super nervous about the results of my CT scan.  My doctor came in and sat next to me and was trying to make small talk and the whole time I just wanted to know what my results were!  The nurse was at the computer and I saw that she was bringing up the CT scan images and then she pulled it over to where the doctor and I were sitting.  The doctor then said that my CA-125 number had gone up 2 points again, but my CT scans looked really good and so she was really glad that we had the scan done this week.  She is not sure why the CA-125 number is going up (it is at 27 now) but it can unfortunately be caused by a lot of things.

I am now 1 1/2 years out from my last chemo cycle!  I can't believe it has been almost 2 years since I was diagnosed with cancer!  The trial study coordinator came and talked to e and said that I will just have two more CT scans at the 3 month interval and then I will get bumped to a 6 month schedule!

The doctor said that my blood pressure was a little bit elevated but it was low enough already that they could still treat me today.  After I was through with the doctor I went and got some lunch and then checked in at the infusion desk.  When they called me back to the infusion room they came to take my blood pressure and the nurse said to not record it if the lower number is higher than 90.  Well, it was right at 90 and I said that the doctor had already okayed my blood pressure and she said that the pharmacist had called and they want to see my blood pressure lower before they okayed the avastin...  Not too happy about that...  After two more tries the lower number was still at 90 but apparently the pharmacist okayed it and so they gave me the avastin without anymore problems...  I seriously think that they are making me super nervous each time they come to take it!

CT scan and labs today.  My appointment was made for 6 p.m. so it was a bit of a crazy.  It made it nice in the fact that I didn't have to find someone to watch my younger kids, but I think I prefer having it done earlier in the day so I can be home for dinner time!  I showed up at Huntsman 1 1/2 hours early to pick up the gastro contrast drink.  Then I went down to the clinic to get my port accessed and have my labs drawn.  Afterwards I went back to the radiology clinic and waited.  They tried taking me back over 30 minutes early but I hadn't had enough of the contrast drink yet so they sent me back to the waiting room.  Finally just before 6:00 the radiologist came out himself to get me and hooked me up to the machine for the scans.  It went very quickly but by the time I was done my regular clinic was closed so I had to go to a different clinic to be deaccessed.  When I got to the other lab I had to sit and wait 15 minutes or so before someone finally came to take care of me.  I'm a little anxious for what the results will be from this scan since my CA-125 number has been slowly going back up...