Had an appointment with my nurse practitioner at Huntsman (the doctor is out of town) this morning, followed by my Avastin infusion.  Everything looks fine with my lab work and blood pressure.  I was a little worried at first when the nurse practitioner came into the room because she had such a concerned look on her face, but the first comment out of her mouth was her asking how a family member of mine is doing who has been diagnosed with cancer.  I thought that that was very touching!  She said that she has been thinking about this person a lot (I mentioned it to her the last time I saw her in December).   I got to the infusion room about 30 minutes early and when they called me back it took quite a while for the lab to send the Avastin down - almost an hour of waiting in the infusion room before it came.  At one point the nurse called the lab to find out what was going on!  Then the machine that I was hooked up to kept beeping saying that there was a problem with my tubing but they couldn't see anything wrong.  I think it beeped about 4 times on me.

We had a snowstorm come through yesterday and more of it today.  DH was able to stay home with the girls and work from home today so that my mom didn't have to make the drive over to our house. I also decided to take Trax in today so that I wouldn't have to deal with driving in the snow.  Unfortunately I left the house a few minutes later than I wanted to (and I had to go back for my cell phone), so I just barely missed the 7:15 train and had to wait around another 15 minutes in the snow for the next train.  Luckily I gave myself plenty of time this morning though and I still made it to Huntsman a half hour before I needed to be there.  It was pretty crowded on the train with the morning commuters and students taking the train this morning.

On the way home the valets at Huntsman drove me down to the Trax station and then it was a relatively quick ride to my stop.  As soon as I got off the train, DH called and asked where I was.  I told him that I had just gotten off of the train and was on my way home.  The snow was pretty deep in a couple of places and it took me a little longer than normal to make my way through some of it.  Then I turned into our neighborhood and had a hard time navigating around the snow piles.  I couldn't make it to the church parking lot that we usually cut through so I went around the other side of the church than I usually do and apparently I just missed DH and the girls.  I showed up at home and no one was there.  I called DH's cell phone and he said that they had gone out to meet me and apparently we just missed each other by going around opposite sides of the church building!  By the time I met up with them finally the girls were freezing!  Kay had refused to put on her boots and was just in her jacket and neither of them had gloves or hats on.  It took me a while to get them all dry and warmed up when we got back home!

Had my hair cut again today.  The top is gradually getting longer so I'm almost to the point where I will need to decide if I will keep it this length or let it grow out.  It is definitely easier to fix this hair style in the mornings.  The top is long enough now that I have tried curling it a few times with a straightener and curling iron.  It gives it a little more body up on top which I like.  I haven't quite mastered the technique yet but it should get easier the more I do it.

I have had many people come up to me, especially at church, commenting on how they like my hair this length.  I have told some people that I would have never dared to cut my hair this length before my cancer, but I am really liking it now.

Sorry it's been a while since I've posted!!  Things have been busy and I guess that is a good thing!  It means that my life is getting busy and back to normal and some days I just don't have time to sit down at the computer and update things!  (I also seem to like putting exclamation points on everything lately!)  I kept meaning to post on my one year anniversary of my surgery and then my one year anniversary of coming home from my surgery (Christmas Day), but I just couldn't find the time to do it.  It is pretty surreal to think about where I was a year ago.  In some ways it seems like a bad dream still.  Sometimes I sit and think, "Did I really go through all of that?"  - even though I definitely have the scars to prove it.  And days like today when I am receiving my next infusion of Avastin.  Another 7 a.m. appointment, but hopefully that gives me enough time to make it back home in time to take the kids to their swim lessons.  Yes, they are off-track again and I was crazy enough to sign them up for swim lessons again!  Even though the outside temperatures haven't been above freezing for the last couple of weeks!  I think it's good to keep them involved in something while they are off-track though so we don't sit around the house all day with them telling me how bored they are.  I also have Luke and Kitty in a soccer clinic that will be Tuesdays and Thursdays and started yesterday.  Swim lessons are Monday, Wednesday and Friday.  

I've been noticing that I have had more and more energy lately.  Our dishwasher broke just after Thanksgiving and we just barely ordered a new one last Saturday so we have been hand washing since then and I have actually had the energy to do it!  I have also been doing some deep cleaning that hasn't been done in a LONG time.  Now if I could just get myself to go to bed at a decent hour, I'd be all set!  (I rarely go to bed before 11 p.m. and I have to get up around 5:50 a.m. to make sure that M&M is up for school - and usually she is not...  Although I do usually go back to sleep for a little bit until the kids get me up or I need to drive Blondie to orchestra class at 8 a.m.)  I even had a crazy couple of nights where I was super in to some family history research I was doing and stayed up until around 2 a.m.  

My hair seems to be getting thicker.  I think I need to get in for a haircut again.  I finally pulled my brush out from hiding and used it for the first time last week.  Up until now I have just been using my fingers to style my hair in the mornings!  I have had numerous people come up to me and tell me that they really like this hairstyle on me.  I am enjoying it too - it is definitely easy to fix in the mornings.    I've also had several people ask me about my highlights - they are natural.  I haven't done anything to my hair color, but it looks like I have some blonde or frosted highlights in my hair (although some of it is starting to turn silver/gray too).

Another clear CT scan!  I feel like my Huntsman team is super relieved every time I have a clear scan - almost like they are expecting each time to have to give me bad news.  So I will keep praying and crossing my fingers that something I am doing is working and that the cancer won't come back.  We had a talk about the radiation from the CT scans and they keep saying that the radiologists agree that the amount that I am receiving is acceptable.  My doctor said that she has yet to see anyone present themselves with cancer that was caused by radiation - although how she would know that it was not radiation that caused it, I'm not sure...  She also said though that in the field of radiology they are constantly improving their methods and the technology so that the amount of radiation that the body is exposed to is significantly less than it was even a few years ago.  She also said that any studies that she could pull up on radiation exposure would most likely be out of date already.  I guess that part of it makes me feel better.  Also, since Huntsman specializes in cancer treatments, they use the absolute minimum amount of radiation needed for each scan.  Apparently other facilities that don't specialize in cancer may use more.  I asked if they would have me doing this many scans if I was not on the study and she said that we would probably do them twice a year because of the advanced stage of my cancer when I was diagnosed.  She also said that she had talked with my surgeon about her concerns for the number of scans.  My doctor is hesitant to have me quit the study that I am on because then I would lose the Avastin which appears to be doing what they want it to - keeping the cancer away.  They said that they have other patients in similar situations that they can't get the Avastin for because it is not approved by the FDA for ovarian cancer.

After my appointment was over I went to the infusion room for my Avastin infusion.  While I was there the counselor that works with my doctor's group came over and had a talk with me to see how I am doing.  We talked some about my Avastin treatments and my concerns over the study that I am on.  I think that my biggest concern is that we really don't know if the Avastin is really doing any good or if it is maybe causing some other problems that will present themselves later on in my life.  I am still young and want to be as healthy as I can for as long as I can be!

Pretty routine CT scan today - if I can even call it that.  I decided to do the alternative to the barium drink again - that stuff just does not agree with my digestive system.  It's something that they mix with sterile water and I haven't had the same problems that I have had with the barium.  It does have quite a nasty taste though so I'm glad that they allow you to mix some Crystal Light with it.  I have to get there a little earlier though so that I can get the drink there and start drinking it.  I decided to have them keep my port accessed since I will have an infusion tomorrow.

Well, yesterday I had a dentist appointment and things are not looking good with my mouth...  I have been very good about brushing and flossing since a few years ago when I had to have some extensive dental work done and I have been going to the dentist regularly - at least twice a year.  Well, yesterday the dentist found 5 cavities on my teeth and he said that I had more plaque build-up than he has ever seen on my teeth...  He kept making comments on how damaging to the mouth a lot of these cancer drugs are.  This is making me question even more if I want to stay on the Avastin or not...  I have to go back in to get the cavities drilled out and filled and the dentist is putting me on a prescription fluoride toothpaste.  He said that if that doesn't work at keeping the cavities at bay then we may have to switch to me sleeping with fluoride trays on my teeth at night.  He said that he has several other patients who have had dental problems while undergoing cancer treatments and a couple of them he has had to switch to the fluoride trays.  Definitely more to think about now...

I contacted my Huntsman group through email today asking about my upcoming CT scan next Tuesday.  I'm a little concerned with all of the scans that my body has been through over the last year and I know that my surgeon is concerned with the frequency of the abdominal CT scans right now.  The nurse called me back and we discussed it a little.  If I decide that I don't want to have the scans every three months then I will have to drop out of the study that I am in - which means no more IV infusions of the Avastin every 3 weeks (at least not paid for by the study).  Right now it is something that I am considering.  Every time I talk to any kind of doctor and mention how often my scans are, the response is universal:  That's a lot of radiation...  I was at the kids' pediatrician yesterday and she said the same thing, which is making me question the frequency as well.  My other question for my oncologist was that if I wasn't in this study, would she recommend the same frequency of scans.  Unfortunately the nurse did not give me a satisfactory answer.  It was something to the effect of she might, but it would all depend on the status of the cancer of the body - which for me is non-detectible - if there is any...  My gut feeling is that my doctor would not prescribe this many scans for me if I wasn't in the study - the nurse is just trying to give a non-committal answer.  A few visits ago when I was at my surgeon's office I asked her what the standard treatment would be if I was at her office alone and she said that it would maybe be scans once a year at the most.  Most likely they would only order a scan if there was some other indication that the cancer was coming back - such as abdominal pain or bloating or my CA-125 number rising.

I asked the nurse what the protocol is for scans for the study I am on.  She talked to the study coordinator and found out that it is abdominal scans every 3 months for the first two years (from the date of my last chemo session).  Then it is every 6 months for the 3 years following that and then it goes to yearly.  I am free to drop out of the study at any time.  I guess the question I need to think about and decide is if I think the benefits of the tests and the Avastin outweigh any possible side-effects that may come my way.

I had my Avastin infusion yesterday morning.  No lab work needed to be done so it was a relatively quick appointment.  The only hiccup was when the nurse came to deaccess my port.  The two of us were talking about books that our boys were reading and she pulled out the needle and after a few seconds she glanced down and noticed that there was blood pouring out of my port!  By the time we noticed there was a problem it was all over the front of my shirt.  She quickly put the bandaid on it and then applied pressure to my port.  After a minute or two it had stopped and the nurses put a big piece of gauze and a large bandaid over it.  The nurse who had deaccessed me said that she had never seen a port do that before, but another nurse said that it happens every once in a while so she didn't seem too concerned.  I wonder if the Avastin is causing my blood to take longer to coagulate.  I will have to mention it to my doctor the next time I come in.

Here is a picture of my shirt when I came home.  The nurse felt really bad and offered me some hydrogen peroxide to use there at Huntsman, but I didn't want to have to go home with a wet shirt so I declined.

This morning when I took the bandaid off I noticed that the skin covering my port was all yellow - I'm not sure if that is bruising from the pressure on it yesterday or if it is blood under the skin.  I will just have to keep an eye on it.

I'm reminded again today just have fragile life is...

On my drive to my infusion this morning (I left around 6:15 a.m.), I heard a news report on the radio that there had been an auto-pedestrian accident at an intersection very close to my house.  I didn't think much about it until my husband called around 8:00 a.m. to tell me that that section of road was blocked off (and this was more than an hour after I first heard about the accident).  I looked around on the internet to see if I could find any news reports on the accident and the only thing I found was what I already knew.  Then on my drive home I purposely drove by that section of road and it was still blocked off - there was a fire truck there and they were hosing down a section of the road.  When I got home I found that the news report had been updated and that it was a middle school gym teacher who was jogging to school and had been hit and killed!  I knew immediately that it was M&M's gym teacher.  He is in our church stake and I have frequently seen him jogging to or from the school for work.  He has been teaching at the school for 17 years.  We have seen him frequently outside of the school setting at church events and he has a son that was in the marching band with M&M.  Right after I had read that news report I got a message from M&M confirming that it was in fact her teacher.  This was her response after I asked a few questions:

"It was really sad, we passed it on our way to seminary. A couple of girls in our class were there when it happened, and when they came in they were shaking, so when our class found out it was pretty much dead silent."

I had just been commenting over the last month or two about how neat (and strange at the same time) it was to see so many people that we associate with on a non-church level at church functions.  I have seen M&M's gym teacher at numerous events both with the church and marching band in the last little while.  Even though I did not associate with him on a personal level, I am saddened to think about those people that he was close to and how it will affect them.  It really brings to home the fact that life is so very fragile and any of us can be taken home to our Heavenly Father at any time.  That fact hit me really hard last year when I was first diagnosed with cancer and even though my life has been prolonged for the moment, it is events like these that make me realize that I need to be grateful for every second that is given to me and spend my time and energy on those things and people that are most important to me.  

My thoughts and prayers are with this teacher's family & friends at this time.  I hope they will find peace and feel of Heavenly Father's love.

Had a pretty full day today.  I started out with my mom coming over to watch the kids for me so I could go to my appointment with my surgeon.  It was a pretty routine visit and everything looks fine as far as she can tell.  (Although my blood pressure always seems to be really high when I am in that office!)  I think she is a little concerned with how often I am having CT scans done, but it is because of the study that I am on...  I'm not sure if there is much I can do about that...

After my doctor's visit I went to get my second haircut.  The lady that has been cutting my hair said that my hair in the front just isn't growing as quickly as the hair in the back and on the sides.  That is something that I had noticed as well but I thought that maybe I was just imagining it!  She cut a little more off of the back and sides since it has grown so much since my last visit - already 6 weeks ago!  I was definitely feeling shaggy again!  I especially don't like the hair around my ears when it gets long!  My hairdresser thinks that I will probably need one or two more cuts before it is all an even length on the top.  Then I'll need to decide if I want to keep this length or not.

After my hair appointment I fed the girls lunch and then my dad came over to watch the girls while I went to the dermatologist for a follow-up appointment.  The dermatologist was really pleased with how my side was healing and said that she didn't think we needed to do anything more to it unless I start to feel it coming back.  She then asked if there was anything else that she could do for me and I asked her about a couple of red, raised spots that I have had on my skin for years.  She said that they could be easily removed and that she could do it right then if I wanted.  So she numbed up both spots and scraped them off and then bandaged them up.  One of the spots is on my chest and whenever I would wear a lower cut shirt MJ in particular would play with it whenever she was sitting in my lap.  I was given some vaseline to keep the spots from drying out and told to keep them covered.  Apparently dermatologists are finding that people are becoming sensitive to many of the topical creams out there so they just recommend that you put vaseline on any spots that need to heal instead of something like Neosporin or some of the other creams out there.  I thought that that was interesting.

After my dermatologist visit I got home and was able to sit down for just a few minutes before M&M came home and I needed to take her to get her hair cut - it has been a long while for her and I have always been the one to cut it.  I thought that she might like a more professional cut this time (plus she wanted some bangs) so I took her to the lady in the neighborhood that has been cutting mine - nice and convenient.

Then I came home and made dinner, rushed off to a pack meeting for our cub scout pack and then rushed off to the last hour of my Sounds of the Season rehearsal.  I am loving playing with this group again - I missed it last year - and they actually needed a bassoon this year so we are having M&M play with us as well.  It's been pretty fun playing with her and helping her out with the music.  She is doing really good for being as young as she is and having not even been playing bassoon for 2 years yet!

It was a super busy day today!!

Here is a really good talk given by Brad Wilcox about the Grace of Jesus Christ - excellent analogy and explanation.

Things have been a little crazy lately.  I keep hearing of more and more people diagnosed with different types of cancer...  There are two people close to our family right now that are dealing with cancer - one is currently going through chemo treatments for breast cancer and the other is going through lots of testing and scans right now to determine if it is cancer and how best to treat it.  The second person is undergoing a major surgery today.  All of this has been bringing back so many memories of what I went through a little over a year ago now...  I remember so clearly all of the tests and scans and doctors' visits and phone calls with more bad news - just when you have been hoping and praying that you would finally get the good news that you have been wanting so desperately to hear...  Even though I have gone through (and continue to go through) some similar experiences, I still don't know what to say to people in the middle of it.  Each type of cancer is a little bit different and each personal experience is different as well.  Our family's thoughts and prayers are with each of you right now.

Got my results from the breast MRI - no sign of anything abnormal.  Those are the results that I like to hear!

My CA-125 number is now down to 19!

I've had a little bit of eye-twitching in my left eye once again.  It comes and goes.  Not sure if it is related to the infusion or not.

Went in for a Breast MRI this morning, followed up by a dr's appt with my oncologist at Huntsman and then an infusion.  I had to be at the clinic at 7:30 a.m. for lab work and then went over for my MRI appt at 8:15.  I was a little nervous about the MRI because the one I had a year ago wasn't very pleasant.  For the breast MRI you have to lay face down on the table and then you go inside the machine backwards.  This one was actually not too bad.  I definitely prefer the way they do the scan at Huntsman to the way it was done at St. Mark's last year.  At St. Mark's they told me that they would not be able to talk to me at all during the scan and I wasn't allowed to listen to any music - they just had head phones on my ears to dampen the sound of the scan.  At first it wasn't too bad but then you lose all sense of time and at one point I almost started to panic, wondering when it would be over.  At Huntsman the lady put me on the table and made sure that I was comfortable and then she said there would be a series of 4 scans - the first three were about 4-6 minutes each and then the last one would be the longest at 8-9 minutes.  She said that she would talk to me in-between each one and then she let me pick what kind of music I wanted to listen to.  It was definitely a much more pleasant experience!

Once my scan was done I had almost 2 hours before my dr's appt.  So I walked over to the waiting room for my clinic and then just sat there doing some work on my ipad and reading.  About 45 minutes before my appt I checked in just in case they were running ahead of schedule.  They called me right back, not realizing that I had already had my lab work done.  They weighed me and took my temperature and blood pressure and my heart rate and then sent me back out to the waiting room for a little while longer.  They when they called me back again I had to wait quite a while before anyone came in to see me.  I had the fellow doctor that I saw back in March again and he did the initial exam before the doctor came in.  Everyone was curious to take a look at my side where I had the sore.  At first my doctor was all concerned about it and telling me that next time I should make sure to call them first and go in to see one of their doctors at Huntsman.  Then when she finally realized that I had gone to a dermatologist at the Huntsman center's satellite office (which is much closer to me), she was much happier and pleased about it.  They were able to pull up the results from the lab work done on my side and print it out for me.  Apparently it was officially diagnosed as a type of cyst.  My oncologist said that if the dermatologist needed to do some minor surgery on the site, it shouldn't be a problem with the Avastin that I am on.

After my dr's appt, I had a little bit of time before my infusion so I went up to the eatery and got myself something to eat for lunch.  Then I went down and checked in for my infusion.  I didn't have too long to wait before they called me back.  I have now become one of those people in the infusion room that I used to envy - those that come in, get their treatment and then leave in less than an hour!  Today they got my Avastin really quickly, even the nurse was surprised.  I was finally in and out in less than an hour!  It was very nice!

The new antibiotic that I am on for the sore on my side makes me a little bit nauseous for about 30-60 minutes right after taking it.  Thankfully I only have to take it twice a day and I just have another day and a half left of it.  The hole is finally starting to close up so I just stopped wearing a bandaid over it a day or two ago.  Hopefully my skin will recover quickly from wearing a constant bandaid on that spot. I need to call the dermatologist to schedule a follow-up appointment for sometime next week.  It still feels like there is a little bit of a hard spot under the skin so I won't be surprised if they want to cut me open a little more to remove it all...

I feel like my hair is getting shaggy again.  I'm still debating with myself as to how long or short I want to keep it.  DH likes it the length it is right now and there are definitely benefits to it.  It looks pretty crazy in the mornings when I wake up so on the mornings where I have to drive Blondie to orchestra before school I usually put a hat on my head.  This morning after I came back home and took the hat off, Kay saw me and said, "Whoa Mom!  Crazy hair!"  Here's a picture of it this morning:

Finally got a call from the dermatologist yesterday evening.  She said that the results were back from the culture that was done on my sore and it is not infected at all.  It was just normal gram positive rod bacteria that is present in everyone's skin - no infection whatsoever.  So after looking at it under the microscope they are pretty sure that what happened was I had a small cyst just under the skin and something happened which caused it to rupture and the redness and pain that I was experiencing was just inflammation.  The doctor told me that she was going to put me on a new antibiotic that is specifically for treating inflammation instead of the one I was on which was for infection.  It is still draining slightly so I am still keeping a bandaid over the spot.  The doctor told me to come back in about 3-4 weeks and then she would take a look at it again and decide if we needed to do anything more to treat it.

My left eye has been twitching off and on ever since my infusion last Wednesday.  I'm not sure if it's related or not but I want to document it.

The sore on my left side has been slowly getting better.  It was still oozing quite a bit for the first two days and I had to put a bandage and gauze on to prevent it from bleeding on my clothes.  There is still a red circle and it feels a little hard still underneath the skin so I'm not sure if that is infection in it still or something else.  I am still waiting for a call from the dermatologist to let me know the results of the cultures.  It feels a ton better though and there is just a little tenderness right at the location.  In addition to that though my skin is getting really irritated with the bandaids I have been having to wear at that same spot for the last week...  It was really itching me yesterday.

My kids have been off-track from school the last couple of weeks and so I signed them up for morning swim lessons to give us something to do.  It wasn't until I had signed them up that I realized that I had my next infusion on the morning of their last day of swim lessons.  My infusion was originally scheduled for 8:30 a.m. but I decided to see if they could reschedule it for 7 a.m. so that I would have a chance of getting home in time to take them to their lessons.  So I was up dark and early this morning so that I could leave the house by 6:15.  I had a backup plan in case I wasn't going to be back in time.  I had DH take Blondie to orchestra rehearsal and then had lined up someone to pick her up from that and bring her home.  Luckily it was probably one of my quicker infusion appointments and I was out of there in a little under 2 hours.  I'm thinking I may reschedule all of my infusions to 7:00!

When the nurse came to access my port she asked me about a wound culture that had been ordered the previous day (my visit to the dermatologist).  I explained what the wound was and she then proceeded with my port.  Apparently there is a new procedure now that they are starting where I have to put on a mask while the nurse is accessing me - since she has to put one on as well.  It seems kind of weird and a waste, but that is hospital procedure for you...

When I woke up this morning my side was still oozing a bit so I changed the bandage again.  It is still pretty sore but feeling better.  Hopefully I will get results of the lab work soon...

I would like to preface this post by saying that if you are at all queasy about medical things, you may want to skip this one...  And also all I can say is that my life is far from boring medically speaking...

About a week ago my right side started hurting and I was trying to remember if I had injured it in some way.  It was really starting to bother me so I asked my husband to look at it to see if there was a bruise or something there that he could see.  The spot was located just a couple of inches below my armpit and more toward my back so I was having a hard time seeing it.  When he looked at it he thought that it looked like a pimple that was trying to form in that spot.  So I didn't think much more about it and kept looking at it every once in a while to see if the pimple had formed yet.  Then Sunday evening came around and it was really starting to hurt - very sensitive to the touch and there was a small red round spot at the location.  That night I tried some ice on it to see if the swelling and pain would decrease at all.  On Monday it wasn't much better and probably got a little worse.  By this time it was a bit bigger and incredibly painful - even to move that arm much.  After doing some looking on the internet that night I decided to try some heat on it and that seemed to help some.  In the morning it didn't hurt quite as much but the spot seemed to be the same size.  I decided that I should probably see if I could setup an appointment with a dermatologist.  Luckily I was able to find one that could see me at 5:00 that day.

After I gave the dermatologist the short rundown of my medical history, she took a look at the spot and I think was quite surprised by how big it was...  Her first impression was that it was just a large abscess.  She asked if I wanted her to try cutting a small hole in the top of it to see if she could get some of the infection out.  She wasn't sure if we would get a lot out but thought that it was worth a try.  That sounded great to me at this point.  So she had me lay down on my left side and then numbed the spot up with some lidocaine.  That really hurt - the needle felt really sharp and stung a little.  Then she cut a hole in it and was surprised by how much pus came out.  She then tried pushing around the whole spot to try and get as much out as she could.  That hurt like crazy!!  She kept asking if I was alright or if I needed to take a break.  I had her stop twice to give me a minute to relax a little...  She then asked if I was okay with her cutting the hole slightly larger so that she could try and get more out without having to push so hard.  She put a little more lidocaine on the spot and then resumed her pushing.  At one point I heard her ask the nurse for some forceps - so I'm not exactly sure what she was doing back there but I didn't feel like asking either.  She made a comment once that just when she thought she had gotten most of the infection out, more would start coming.  Then she said that she wondered if instead of an abscess it was a cyst located just below the skin that had ruptured and then become infected.  They took several tissue samples so they could culture it and she said they would look at it under a microscope as well.  Finally the doctor said that she thought they had most of it since it was mostly blood coming out at that point.  They cleaned and bandaged me up and said that they would leave the hole open to allow the wound to continue to drain.  The doctor said that if it turns out to be a cyst like she suspects then I may have to come back in so they can cut me open more so they can remove all of it and then stitch me back up (sounds like fun, huh?).  The nurse sent me home with some more bandages and some vaseline to apply to it when I change the bandage.  The doctor also gave me a prescription for an antibiotic to take and said that they would call me in a couple of days once they had the results from the cultures.

I then went down to the pharmacy to pick up my prescription and then went out to my car to drive home.  As soon as I climbed into my car I just started crying because that procedure had hurt so bad - and was still hurting!  I was able to regain my compose after a minute or so and was able to get myself home.  The doctor had offered to give me a prescription for a painkiller but I thought that I would be alright with just over-the-counter stuff.  After I got home I took a couple of Tylenol and within the hour I felt much better.

Later this evening I emailed my doctor's group at Huntsman to let them know what had happened at the Dermatologist's office and asking if it was alright for me to be on this antibiotic with my Avastin treatments (of which I have one tomorrow morning).  I'm curious what the results will be from the cultures and hopefully this spot will continue to feel better and not get an infection.

When I went to change into my pajamas tonight I found out that the wound had bled/drained quite a bit and totally saturated the bandaid the nurse had put on and there was blood on over my underclothes...  I had DH come up and help me take the bandaid off and clean it up a little and put a new bandaid on.  Then I taped a piece of gauze over it so that hopefully I will not get any blood on my clothes or sheets tonight...